Farewell Max
November 2, 2012 - Today, we lost a treasured and loved member of our family - our dog Max. Due to health and quality of life issues we had to euthanize our friend to put him at peace so that he may be unfretted by his aging body and mind. Max was 14 1/2 years old by our estimation but he could have been as old as 15 years. As a puppy, Max found Tom at his old home in Bowie, Maryland in 1998 when he wandered into the backyard and repeatedly jumped up and down on the patio door attempting to get in. Tom was unsuccessful in locating who Max got separated from and as a result became the best dog Tom had in his life. Max was an exceptionally intelligent, polite, joyful and loving companion. He was loved by many and lived an extraordinary and blessed life. At his home where he spent most of his life (which is actually a small farm), Max enjoyed acres of fields, woods and stream. His life was luxurious even by human standards and was spoiled frequently. In return, he gave us many years of fun, laughter and companionship but most importantly he taught us the true meaning of unconditional love. Max will be terribly missed and our home will feel empty without him but we know that he is in the light of God's grace, free from all pain and anxiety enjoying himself to the fullest as he did here on Earth.
Tom’s tribute to Max:
Max, I will miss you
I will miss your hugs and kisses.
I will miss seeing you around the house.
I will miss my shadow always following me about.
I will miss walking with you through our fields and woods.
I will miss you running beside me as I ride on my tractor.
I will miss you waking us up just before the alarm clock would sound.
I will miss you rubbing your head and body against our bed to get our attention.
I will miss your joyful greetings at the door whenever I came home.
I will miss you chasing the deer, groundhogs and rabbits which you never caught (except for one unfortunate muskrat!)
I will miss you barking at the honking geese flying overhead.
I will miss your palpable excitement whenever we went bye-bye, took you swimming at the canine fitness center or to your favorite park.
I will miss your doogie art on the truck windows and every reachable glass and mirrored surface in our home.
I will miss you sticking your head out the truck windows and licking my ears when I was driving.
I will miss cleaning up all your fur that always seemed to be everywhere and on everything.
I will miss throwing sticks for you to fetch and instead of bringing them back to me you would break them up into tiny twigs and laugh.
I will miss rubbing your belly and seeing how relaxed you were at my feet.
I will miss impressing our guests with how well trained you were and dazzling them with your impressive understanding of our language.
I will miss how much you trusted me to clean your teeth, clip your nails, remove ticks and soothe your cuts and bruises.
I will miss how you would come to me for comfort and protection during loud thunderstorms.
I will miss your calm and gentle spirit which filled me with so much peace.
I will miss how funny you were when you got excited and did spinning "bug runs” around the house like a big black tornado!
I will miss our trips to the beach which you loved so much, except the surf, and how you felt I needed rescuing whenever I ventured into the water.
I will miss fixing your meals and giving you treats which gave you so much pleasure and how you always thanked me afterward (you were so polite!)
I will miss playing hide and seek in the house with you and your favorite game " find the hidden cookies!" (what a nose you had!)
I will miss sharing holidays and life events with you, our families, and friends and how much you were loved by them.
I will miss your ever-present love and how you taught me the true meaning of what unconditional love really is.
I will miss your loving glances and how your tail would wag and thump when you caught my eye.
I will miss saying bedtime prayers with you and kissing you goodnight.
I will miss how you were there for me when I was alone or sad.
I will miss how you filled up my life when I was happy and glad.
I will miss taking care of you as you got old and needed our help.
I will miss the blessing from God that you are, that rare gift that found me at my home long ago and changed my life's path forever.
I will miss my friend, my companion, my buddy.
I will miss you so very much (oh how many tears I will shed for you!)
Farewell my Max but not goodbye,
for we will be together again in the light of God and how sweet it will be (that is a promise!)
You were in angel in disguise, heaven sent to stand by me and be my companion these past 14 1/2 years.
You were always a constant reminder to me of God's presence in my life. What an extraordinary and blessed life you had!
Thank you for everything. I love you dearly. It was a privilege to share life together with you. But now God is calling you back home.
Sweet, playful dreams buddy...till we meet again.
Your pal,
Tom
Caring for a Senior Dog
Fortunately, we were able to rush Max to a nearby animal hospital for immediate surgery. Due to his advanced age, there was a high probability that he would not survive the surgery or even the anesthesia. So we prepared ourselves to say goodbye to Max. But due to the skills of his attending emergency vet, Max survived and came through very well with no complications. A wonderful outcome to our fervent prayers for him! In case you are wondering, the bill came to a heavenly $5,500 for his care. Thank goodness, I decided to carry pet insurance for him all these years. It paid for about two-thirds of the bill for us and continues to pay for his frequent visits to the vet which are very expensive.
Max’s recovery was swift but about a month later he suffered a mild stroke. We are not sure if the bloat surgery was the cause (a latent clot etc.) Since the stroke, Max’s personality began to change and then his cognitive abilities began to decline. The first wake up call for us that this was happening to him was a massive display of incontinence in one of our bedrooms while we slept. Not a great thing to wake up to! Max’s incontinence began to increase in frequency and he didn’t seem to know where he was (inside or out when he went to the bathroom) or wandering/pacing in circles. Then he started to become very anxious at the slightest thing and would not let us stroke or kiss him anymore. He would yelp sometimes when you touched him. It became tougher and tougher to put his diaper on. We had to buy more, since his diaper was always in the washer being cleaned. It is also annoying that Max seems to wiggle out of his diaper during the night and then makes a nice accident for us to clean up the next morning. Because of this Max now sleeps in our tiled kitchen where cleanups are easier but still unpleasant especially on a work day morning.
Max then stopped eating for 4 days straight. We were frantic to get him to eat anything and prepared for him to die. But then we discovered he would eat homemade applesauce, then we progressed to mashed sweet potatoes. Lastly, we discovered if we mixed baby food with his prescription kidney food he would gobble it up enthusiastically. His appetite came back but his weight is still way down. So we are now indulging him with more low-phosphorus food. Presently, his appetite is voracious and he practically inhales his food!
Still concerned about his cognitive abilities (confusion, anxiety and fear-based reactions) we took him back to the vet to see what could be done. They prescribed him Selegiline for senility. This is a drug that is used for Parkinson’s disease in humans. It has good reviews from other dog owners whose companions suffer from similar cognitive disorders. We just started Max on this medicine today and even though it is very, very early he seems to have perked up a bit and is less anxious and more alert. We hope this continues and that the drug brings back the old Max.
I can’t help think about the parallels my mother had in caring for my beloved Grandmother, Lucy Mae who also suffered from mild dementia in her final year and needed custodial care at the assisted living facility she lived in. The constant attention and care is incredibly draining and both Sheila and I are wearing thin taking care of Max (especially poop duty!) Our neighbors now know how tough it is to take care of Max now. They took care of him while we were in Ireland (they have done so before for our previous trips) and realized he needs a lot of care and oversight. If it isn’t his senility and confusion, it is his kidneys and his special food preparations, or it is his incontinence inside the house, or it is his weak hind legs which are losing muscle mass and make him fall down too much.
Max’s ailments breaks our heart. He means so much to us. He is the finest dog companion we have ever had. We are trying everything we can to help him and restore his quality of life but it is a losing battle. He will die soon, we know that. We want him to live as well and long as possible in comfort and peace and we don’t mind the cost, time or effort. But it is hard. It is so unfair that such wonderful creatures which give us so much unconditional love do not live as long as us. At least our medicine is better for them these days. Just like we did for my Grandmother, we will continue to love and support Max as much as possible until God calls him home. Until then, caring for a senior dog really takes a lot energy but for people who have done the same for their loved ones during their final days know what we are going through and understand our devotion to Max.
- Tom, Sheila and Max
Living Off the Grid
Thankfully, we have a generator that can power our well pump, fridges, lights, Internet, TVs/phones, and microwave. But it is not powerful enough to run our heating/cooling units. During this heat wave, being without air conditioning is downright dangerous to your health. In addition to storm damage (some of our siding was blown off which I have since repaired), roads were blocked by downed trees and power lines and businesses like gas stations, ATMs and grocery stores were closed because they had no power either.
These conditions and the slow response by our local electric company, PEPCO to restore power throughout the area taught me that I need to be more prepared and self-sufficient when it comes to providing energy for my home. As a result, I am looking to purchase a larger portable gas generator to power all of our appliances and HVAC systems but I will still be faced with the problem of needing to have a long-lasting supply of gas on hand. During this latest outage, we had to make long-distance gas runs to keep our smaller generator running and it was not easy to find an open and working gas station that had fuel. Some were out of gas! The larger gas generator is obviously not a long-term solution for lengthy disasters. Standby generators that use propane are another consideration but they would probably last about a week until the propane runs out and again, this type of fuel supply is vulnerable to vendor outages.
So I am considering a solar option. It is a renewable energy source and can be operated off the grid or tied into the grid. I am leaning toward pole-mounted sun tracker solutions since they are 25% more efficient than fixed roof-mounted solar panels and I have lots of land to set it up a pole-mounted system. Problem is some of these solar systems are 3 times as costly as a large gas generator and wind damage to the panels is a concern of mine. We get a lot wind here during storms being at the highest point in our county. So the system will need to have a low profile to reduce being affected by the wind. Also, I need a decent amount of wattage for all our appliances, so I will need a fair amount of panels to get the power we need. Again, more panels means more money. Of course, I need to upgrade my power intakes to adapt to a solar system which is even more money. So I am looking at least a $10K system with a battery backup.
So my research continues but I need to get a solution set up short-term since I am certain that we will face another outage event again this year (from perhaps a hurricane coming up the coast, a snowstorm or just another wicked line of severe thunderstorms). In the 21st century, it should not be difficult to set yourself up to live off the grid but unfortunately it does take a lot of effort. I am determined to find a way for us! It would give me peace of mind living in such a beautiful but remote area. Stay cool!
- Tom